It is better not to have dreams unless you dare to pursue them!
They called it some rare blood disease for Arun’s blood contained too much venom. Arun couldn’t play, couldn’t stand sun, couldn’t run and couldn’t afford scolding. Arun would turn red if any of these happened and remained as a silent, obedient and macro-disciplined boy through out his childhood. There weren’t any medicines and Arun was told that he would be fine when he grow up, little they knew about the venom that it would remain in him for the rest of his life.
So, Arun never dreamed about becoming a cop or to start with he never wanted to be a pilot. Doctor wasn’t a good idea either and in those days there were no engineers in his family or village to draw inspiration from. When Arun went to Navodaya, the joining form had a column on your dream and he said, Arun want to be a scientist. When Arun was a kid he fancied microscope and to his knowledge every man who looked into a microscope was destined to become a scientist. Later, Arun found that it was his sub-conscious mind falling in love with a lens which attracted him to microscope. The point is, to become a scientist wasn’t a dream as Arun thought rather it was a career ambition.
Arun was twelve and he was on his vacation. He had seen so many movies by then as he had a Keltron color TV and VHS video cassette player at home. Arun went out and rented a cassette. It was a Malayalam movie titled, ‘Vachanam’.
Lenin Rajendran was the director of ‘Vachanam’. There was a lengthy shot in which Tilakan playing a cop was walking very fast with his assistant and the camera following. He hasn’t seen a scene like this before and realized that movies can be different. Arun decided to become a movie director.
Now, he knew why he always liked watching movies. Why he preferred motion pictures over any other form of art. Why he had too many dreams with visuals sans sound. Why he loved colors. Why the whole world always appeared kinetic to him and he had no choice but to remain static and watch it. Why he always sat and watched happenings around him and never wanted to be part of it. Why he always watched, watched and watched.
Arun grew up as he had no choice! He never met any body who carried a dream with them for so long. Alas, along with the dream Arun carried with him the poisoned blood and his macro-disciplined nature.
Every one had an advice. Every one wanted him to prove what they left out to prove.
This is a case study. You need to decide the path that you wish to take up. Do you want to pursue your dream? Or do you want to remain that macro-disciplined guy making others happy. At the end they are going to come and find you, the people whom you made happy, and they are going to tell you that they were never happy. I warned you!
